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I don't feel like meeting up with Pool Boy today. I'm thinking of cancelling. Seriously, I have a million better things to do than torture myself through an evening with someone who is so clearly wrong for me.

ETA

I just texted and told him I wasn't interested in going out. I always feel like I'm being such a complete B!TCH when I turn men down. I've been brainwashed my entire life to be POLITE and always say YES even when my gut is screaming at me nooooo.

Uuug I feel terrible to tell him no. I hate this. Regret mingles with relief and I can not feel happy.